i'm never happier than before. then again maybe i was too deprived of happiness sometime back when i was so busy being sad at work remember? but anyways, as i was saying i'm happy and that's scary. i'm never one to believe i can be happy and always STAY happy. i always feel if i'm too happy, its always a prelude to something disastrous. just like the chinese idiom or english saying goes 'the calm before the storm'.

how ironical i am and life is sometimes, isn't it? i want to be happy but when i'm happy, i get worried and end up not that happy because i would be thinking when will some calamity befall. oh well... enough of awful thoughts as my favourite month of the year is here once again.

i love december and all that is coming along. i'm in a pretty much festive mood organizing christmas dinners with friends and all. have yet to do my christmas shopping. hmmm, dig some time out soon, i hope. hee...

work has been great this couple of weeks. albeit me falling sick almost whole of last week and still not fully recovered as of now. caused 2 colleagues to fall sick too and went on mc as well. *bleahz* its really a potent flu virus lor, i tell you!

but work is really going well - getting along with my colleagues, knowing more about all the systems and processes, near home etc. i'm really enjoying it more and more. so good right! i'm really happy too.

i just msn-ed with one of my ardent fan. haha... no lah, not fan, maybe just a occasional by-passer whom added me on the msn. i should say the bypasser is pretty lucky because i'm pretty anti-social. i don't add any-one and every-one. so to be on my list, thats pretty tough. i mean got thing to chat with a stranger meh?

well, next msn-name-adder got to run background check already. =P i always believe the point of friends is not the quantity but the quality of the relationship. a few good ones are enough to last a lifetime lor! =)

hmmm, it just surprises me that there's people i don't know really about my life. all along, i thought perhaps that theres only those few close friends i have whom patronises my blog - mengli jie, dap, cal, uzyn, sek ling, xiaoluo, ...... , ..... erm and thats it. but whoa, there really is other people reading lor!

then i must maintain a image already le lor. i got image one ok! haha...

but anyways, i find there's so many people that blog for attention or for bloggership and what not. theres so much news about those controversial people. i do read their blogs on and off for entertainment, however, end of the day, i still find blogging a means of way to keep in touch with my friends like knowing what they are up to even without chatting or meeting up. on top of reminding me years down the road what i did during that time la hor. a means of supplement to my deteriorating memory! haa...

its nice to go into your friend's blog, see what they have been busy with, thinking about, going to do and be in touch AND vice versa. not for some fame or for money or what lor.

listening to olivia olsen's 'all i want for christmas' and that's my favourite song when it comes to december along with billy mack's 'christmas is all around'! they are songs from 'love actually' and i love that movie. so touching lor. i watched it around this time last year. so "lomantic" can... *awwwww*

time for bed for me now and before i forget, christmas dinner anyone?